But God’s nature is greater than our enemy or our nature; his nature takes the place of our self-nature if we ask him for help. When that happens - when God shows us that He is Love, we start to understand that by his power and spirit in us - God lets us experience what love really is and we're able to be vulnerable with him. His spirit and power in us teaches us that he's never going to hurt us, he's never going to let us down, so we can become more and more dependent, reliant and open to him. We hear his voice more clearly, we know what his plans are for us, we know his love. He begins take apart those walls we build to keep the enemy out, because they were keeping him out too. But as Leonard Cohen says "There is a crack in everything. That's how the light gets in." If you make yourself vulnerable to him, his light will flood your heart. Jesus is light. Bill Johnson says light doesn't debate with darkness, when light comes on darkness goes away. It's that way with Jesus. The more you become vulnerable to him, the more you say, 'Jesus I trust you are good, I trust you love me', the more he will flood your heart with light. Darkness will flee from you; the enemy will go back to crawling away in the mud. He might keep throwing mud at you but Jesus will keep on washing it off. You'll experience total safety in the midst of danger or fear or trial or pain. You'll experience freedom in the face of temptation and persecution and failure or loss.
But you won't only experience it with Jesus, you'll start to feel so safe, you'll know his love is so strong, you'll know his power is so great - beyond anything you can imagine - that that vulnerability will start to spread out to people around you; people you pray with, people you worship with, people you live with, people you work with. You'll choose to make yourself secondary, you'll choose to make yourself lesser, you'll choose to make yourself available. You'll choose to share how Jesus changed your heart, how he got you through, how he forgave your mistakes and failures. Someone else will experience that same floodlight that got through your cracks because someone else knowing Jesus will be so much more important than your reputation or your safety or your self. Your venerability empowered by Jesus will not be a weakness at all. He'll fill those cracks in your walls and He will become your greatest strength. The cracks in your walls will start to bring life.